Happy Anniversary to us!

Today is our one year wedding anniversary! :] We celebrated by going to church and then a ward potluck to greet our new bishop. Hahah. Next weekend we are really celebrating...we are going on a little getaway to Park City. Tom got us a really nice hotel with a fireplace and wood floors! We are going Thursday night and just staying the one night (Friday is a holiday in Utah--Pioneer Day). So before I blogged, I wrote in a diary. I thought I might transfer some things from the diary about Tom and I dating/engagement/wedding to this blog since we will more likely look back on the blog than all my random diaries in future years. Don't laugh too much--I'm pretty back and forth with wanting to marry and not wanting to marry. It's kind of humorous. This really is our whole dating story/engagement story..and I just finished typing it all and it's really very long. If you want to read the good stuff, just skip to the bottom where the engagement story is. The rest is really for my own records...although do I really want to remember all that!? hahah.

Saturday, September 1, 2007


(Just to give you an idea of timing this entry begins with "I just moved into my dorm room yesterday")

"I was kind of dating Tom Wallace before I left for BYU. He wants to marry me but I want to date and see what's out there. I'm not ready to get married yet. I just want to have fun first."
(as if being married means you can never have fun again)


Wednesday, October 10, 2007 (I only write about once a month...get over it.)

"Thomas came last weekend and it was amazingly fun. I really miss him. I'm pretty much positive I'll marry him. He's absolutely perfect. Pretty much I just need a ring to make it official. But that won't be coming until sometime next year. :] I'm exciting to marry him!"


November 10, 2007


"I often wonder if Thomas is the guy I should marry. I really do love him. But something just doesn't feel right...it seems like I'm always questioning the relationship and I really don't think that's how it's supposed to be. I pray a lot about the situation but I can't seem to get an answer. I have brought a couple ideas before the Lord to continue dating Thomas or to end the relationship. Both have brought me confusion. I hope that, in time, an answer will come to me. Poor Thomas is having such a rough time. He is so sure that it's right and I keep questioning."

November 12, 2007

"I HATE being away from Thomas. It just makes me so mad. And so grumpy. UGHHH. I would never, ever recommend a long-distance relationship EVER. It's the worst!...and on Saturday I can finally GO HOME and see Thomas. And not be so MAD. That's all."

January 7, 2008

"I'm really struggling right now. Thomas is in Utah with me and it's great...except that I'm still so confused. I'm not sure what to do. Should it be this confusing? I don't know what to do."

January 13, 2008

"Thomas and I had a ton of fun tonight. :] I love him."
(seriously, really back and forth)

January 14, 2008

"Thomas and I went to the mall today for a few minutes so I could exchange some things then we studied and then went to Coldstone. He's great. I love him :] I'm grateful for all the blessings in my life."


January 15, 2008

"Tom and I hung out from 6-midnight. I love him! We studied and went to Carl's Jr. and made chocolate chip cookies. I love spending time with him. And I hate saying goodnight :["


January 16, 2008

"Back and forth, back and forth. I just don't know about Thomas. I mean, is it reall supposed to be this confusing? Everything just doesn't feel the way I always imagined it would feel. I just don't know. :["


January 16, 2008 (later, I guess)

"Thomas and I are on a little break. I've decided the only way I can know if he's right for me is by dating other guys. I need sometime to compare him to. I prayed about it and I feel ok so I just hope I can figure things out soon. If Thomas is right for me...I don't want to wait anymore. I want to get engaged. And if he's not right, I want to start searching for my future husband."

January 19, 2008

No other dates yet. I hung out with Tom today and yesterday. I will go on other dates...just as soon as I'm asked. I have fun with Thomas but I'm honestly just not sure."

January 21, 2008

"Thomas and I went to D.I. so I could get some books then we met up wtih Laurin at Cafe Rio for lunch. Then we went with Laurin to Bath and Body Works...Thomas had to bring me home tonight at like 10:40 because I had a bad stomach ache. I'm really scared of breaking Thomas's heart. We've become such good friends and I hope I really never have to do that. But I do want to marry the guy that's right for me so I guess we'll see."

January 27, 2008


"I went on a date Saturday night. The date was really so fun. Now about Thomas. It's so hard. I care about him so much but I'm still just not sure."

January 28, 2008


"Thomas and I had a heart-to-heart today. I think everything is pretty much out in the open. I explained how I'm looking at all the traits I like in guys and I'm deciding which traits are most important to me, etc. I told him how much I cared about him but how I wasn't guaranteeing we'd end up together. I feel really good about our talk. :]"

January 31, 2008

"So tonight I went out with Jake again. We went to Seven Peaks and played broom hockey on the ice. It was pretty fun. Then we went to eat at this rice and pudding place--it was...interesting. Then Jake took me home and I called Thomas. Haha and Thomas picked me up and we went bowling. It was fun :] I don't think Jake is my type but he's a cool friend. I missed Thomas on my date but I think I need to date more still."

February 18, 2008

"Thomas and I went home this weekend! It was so fun! We went out to a really fancy dinner on Thursday for Valentine's Day in Salt Lake. Thomas gave me Tommy Girl perfume and a diamond necklace. (okay so i guess i don't mention what I gave to him and it makes me seem a little like a brat...i gave him a book of 75 reasons why i loved him and also a message in a bottle...a love note. this was a good week!) After dinner, we started our drive to California. We left Salt Lake at 11pm and drovfe all night. Well, we stopped for one hour to sleep. We got to Rancho at 8:30am. Then we surprised everyone. It was fun. We had a really great weekend. I'm pretty much set on marrying Thomas. I don't know how it happened but while I was at home it suddenly felt so right. I am so in love with him. I want to sleep by him every night. :] I'm going to wait until I feel good about this for about a month before I tell him he can start preparing for a proposal :] I'm very excited."

February 22, 2008


"Okay so yesterday I was starting to feel nervous again about Thomas and I was so mad! How could it feel so right and then so confusing? But I still feeel like we can be very happy together. We can make a great family together. I know Thomas will take such great care of me. I want to marry him. I prayed about it tonight and I feel at peace when I pray. I think Heavenly Father is really saying I have to make my decision. I think he knows Thomas will take great care of me but he also knows there are other people who could too. I don't believe in soulmates. I think Heavenly Father knows I have to decide for myself and be sure. Thomas is the one I want. I love him. I'm not interested in anyone else. I want to spend my life with Tom. I want to raise kids with him. I want to go through life's trials with him by my side. I am so in love with him :] He makes me happy. We went ring shopping tonight. There are so many pretty ones! I found a super pretty one at this place called Samuel's. Then we went to a movie...August Rush. It was decent."

February 23, 2008


"I have got to be the most frustrating girlfriend on the planet! I am so back and forth. I was feeling really uneasy today again and so I talked with Thomas about it. He's really angry--who could blame him? I keep tugging at his feelings--good and bad. How confusing for him! I MUST figure things out."


February 24, 2008


"I want to be with Thomas. I can't imagine my life without him. Thinking that he could marry someone else is devastating. I want to raise my children with him. I want to support him and I want him to support me. I want this to work out for us. I want to marry Tom. Now I'm going to fast every day this week. Next Sunday will be my last day of fasting. And at that point, I will pray about it again. If I feel good about it, we move forward with an engagement. If I still feel uneasy...we call it quits. No more playing with his heart. I want Thomas to be happy. If I can't make him happy I need to let him go so that someone else can. Please let it be right..."

February 25, 2008


"Wow, a lot happened in one night. I thought Thomas and I were going to break up for good last night. I was feeling really uneasy and he was really getting sick of hte back and forth. There was a lot of crying and I honestly thought I was going to call my dad that night and tell him I was flying home or something needed to pick me up. I was seriously considering discontinuing from BYU, quitting my job, and getting out of here ASAP. Then I started thinking how I'd hold up without Thomas and then leaving didn't sound like such a great idea anymore. Tom suggested we take a one week break...no taking, nothing. (note: this was kind of an ultimatum. he gave me one week. after that, decide. if i was still indecisive, no more.) I agreed and came into my dorm and did homework for about an hour and then lost it completely. A week without Thomas!? Ridiculous. So I texted him and told him I couldn't do it. He came over about an hour later. We watched the 3 stooges in my dorm then walked to the temple. My mom called me and said "You love him, huh?" Yes of course! Then she told me how sometimes she got scared when she and Dad were engaged. She asked me lots of questions. 1) Would Tom be a good provider? Yes. 2) Would he be a good father? Yes. 3)Would he honor his Priesthood? Yes. 4)Do you like him? Yes. 5) Do you love him deeply? Yes. and then she was like "Okay, then you need to just trust your feelings. If he is everything you've been looking for in a husband, trust yourself. So i'm working on that. Then she talked to Tom and explained she knew I loved him but was just uneasy because I have no support from anyone here in Utah. I think Tom and I will wait until we get back to CA before we get engaged. He and I went running today...kinda. We ran like 20% of the time. We went up to the temple and back. It started raining once we got to the temple. My hands/arms were SO cold when we got back."

February 28, 2008

"I feel like mine and Thomas's relationship isn't as close as it used to be. Hahah--did that make sense gramatically? Anyway--I just don't know how I feel. I do know I'm confused. He's trying so hard. I feel so bad for being so indecisive. I want to be able to tell him I for sure want to marry him and then move forward with it. The problem is I don't know if that's what I actually want. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?"

March 30, 2008

"Thomas and I are doing okay. I still feel up and down and that really confuses me. :/ It would be so terrible if things didn't work out with me and Thomas. He would be devastated and I would feel like such...a punk."


April 2, 2008:


"I love Thomas! We actually got in a fight on Tuesday (so last night) but we talked through it so everything is great."


April 5, 2008

"Conference weekend! Woohoo! I'm waiting for Thomas to pick me up. We'll watch the Saturday morning session at his apartment then we'll go to Mark and Laurin's this afternoon. Tomorrow morning we are going to the conference center to watch it then tomorrow afternoon we'll probably be back at Tom's."

April 6, 2008


"Today is a good day. Conference was great. Tom and I went to Salt Lake for the morning session then watched the afternoon session at his house. I can't wait for the conference ensign to come out :] Tom had a mission reunion tonight so we went to that. It was fun. His mission President and wife are really sweet. Tom, Jesse (tom's roommate), and I played Phase 10. I won :] We played last night and I lost terribley. I still don't think I'm 100% sure about marriage. Some days I feel really great about marrying Tom and other days it makes me feel really uneasy. Only time with tell..."


April 7, 2008

"Tom and I watched the March Madness championship tonight. Memphis lost. Bummer. We both guessed they'd win."

April 8, 2008


"Thomas and I played Phase 10 dice tonight and did a crossword." (my journal entries aren't this short...i'm just leaving all the stuff that isn't about thomas out.)

April 9, 2008


Tonight I began preparing for a talk for our ward devotional on Thursday. Erin is in charge of putting them together and she asked me to speak on "loving yourself as Jesus loves you." I really did not want to speak and desperately searched for a reason to get out of it. However, all attempts failed and I unhappily accepted the invitation. So tonight I went to lds.org and searched for "loving yourself." The first article listed was called "Breaking Up Without Breaking into Pieces." I was interested so I opened it to read it. It spoke about couples who seriously date and then one or both decide the relationship should not end in marriage. It stated that if this is the case, breaking up is often the kindest solution. It made many interesting points such as one person may feel they have received an answer from Heavenly Father confirming the relationship was right and ripe for marriage. It said you can receive this answer as an okay to continue dating but it is not a promise that marriage will actually occur or is even the best choice. The article said people change and sometimes your answer can then turn to a 'no.' As I read and pondered the article, I wondered if it was speaking to me. I considered that perhaps it was the Lord's way of communicating with me regarding my relationship with Thomas. I think I've said before that I still struggle with feeling like I receive a constant answer to my situation of marriage...or no marriage. Troubled, I knelt before the Lord and prayed earnestly about the article and my relationship. Perhaps surprisingly, I did not feel I should end my relationship with my dear Thomas (sigh of relief). Even though I still often feel confused, I love Thomas. I enjoy spending time with him. I respect him. I feel a bond between us. I was so terribly for our relationship to work but at the same time I know if it is not the Lord's will I should not marry him. I hope my answer comes soon."


April 11, 2008


"Thomas and I went ring shopping tonight. We've done that before but it wasn't as successful as this time! We found the ring. I decided I wanted a sqaure ring with four diamonds in the center rather than like just one diamond in the middle. So we looked at some at Samuels...nothing. And then we looked at Zales...some were really pretty but then we went to Kay Jewelers and there it was! So perfect and so pretty! It's on sale too! Well...until April 20th so haha I guess he has to buy it before then. But I think that's okay :] It's so pretty! I'M SO IN LOVE WITH IT. Yayyy.

Pretty engagement ring!

Yay!

Marci is so excited!

So very excited!

Pretty ringssss

that mean pretty thingsss

i <3>

and pretty sqaure

engagement rings

& boyfriends

& fiances.

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!

April 14, 2008

"A lot to say! I got VERY sick last night :[ Erin, Sabrina, Thomas, and I ate in the Cannon Center Cafeteria. It was great and I went to Tom's house afterward. We did a crossword and I attempted to take naps. After being there about 2 hours, I started to feel really sick...like really nauseus. I asked Tomto take me home because I really wasn't feeling well. I tried to sleep in my dorm but I was so queasy. Hayley came home and I was crying because I was afraid I was going ot throw up...my worst fear. Someone went to get our RA, Lacey. She came in and got me a cold washcloth. Erin got me a sprite and Hayley and Danielle found ice for me to chew. I asked Lacey to call Tom so he could come give me a blessing. He brought Jesse with him adn they blessed me to have a quick recovery. Erin stayed and watched Maid in Manhatten with me. I threw up mid-movie. Ew. So much for my 7 year record. I was pretty restless last night. The longest I slept in one period was 26 minutes. Thomas just called me! I'll write the rest tomorrow..."

Okay so I never did "write the rest tomorrow" but I know what happened. After this experience, I was suddenly so sure that I should marry Thomas. It suddenly was so very clear to me that it was the right decision. The whole story is long but basically being given that blessing from Thomas confirmed for me the answer I had been seeking...it directly related to a paragraph in my patriarchal blessing that had been troubling me regarding marriage and it suddenly all made sense. So this is when I really was sure. Really. (Promise!)

April 17, 2008

"Have I mentioned yet that Thomas bough a ring? No--THE ring? We are DEFINITELY getting married about I'm very excited! Everything is just the way I imagined it would be...I'm so crazy in love. Thomas is truly amazing. He always makes me so happy! I cannot wait to be sealed to him! We're going to make a great couple."

April 19, 2008

"I bought my wedding dress today! YAYYY. It is seriously so gorgeous! It's so sparkly and pretty. Ahh, how I love it! I also bought a veil and a slip. So my dress was like $670 or something and the veil was 90 but I got it for FREE because if you bought a dress this month at Allyse's bridal and paid for the whole thing by the end of the month you got $100 off a veil. And the slip was like $60. Mom and Dad paid for my dress. I'm so so so so excited to be married! I think my colors are going to be yellow and white with some orange ribbon. I'm very thrilled. Thomas and I are so perfect for each other. We are going to make the greatest couple." (holy cow, can i say that enough?)

April 21, 2008

"Thomas and I looked at the stars tonight. It was really fun. :] and so sweet and cute."

April 29, 2008

"Well, I'm in the dark and can't really see so I apologize for any bad handwriting...So...I'm ENGAGED! Thomas proposed tonight! I am so thrilled beyond words. By the way, we're home and loving every minute of it. I've been so anxious for this proposal! Here's my story: Tom came over after work. He insisted we watch a movie. About halfway through he said he needed to use the bathroom. Pause. I'm going to finish this tomorrow when I can see..."

April 30, 2008

"Okay so Thomas came over after work yesterday and asked if I wanted to start a movie. I had told him earlier in the day that I wanted to watch a movie but I didn't feel like it anymore when he came so I said not really. He was like "No, we have to" and so I was like "okay..." So we did. We started Firewall. Then I was kinda sitting on Tom's lap and he told me I couldn't sit there. I was like "why not?" and he was like "Because what if I have to go to the bathroom?" So i was like okay that's kinda a weird reason but whatever so I sat next to him. Then I had my hand on his leg and I FELT the ring box! hahah so I was like "Oooo, what's this?" and he was like "my keys." So i was like (note: holy cow did I say like enough in my diary?) hahaha okay and I knew it was the ring box but I let it go. Then halfway through the movie Tom was like "Okay I need to go to the bathroom really fast." I was like "hmmm, okay" but I was pretty sure that wasn't where he was going. It was like right during a really scary part of the movie so I was like "well can i go upstairs?" (this is where more people were so I wouldn't be scared) and he said "no" so I was like "how come?" and he said "Because I'll be right back." So I was like "oookay." then my mom goes (from the top of the stairs) "Hey, Marci, can you come up here for a minute." Me "uh-huh..." (pretty suspicious at this point). So i go up the stairs and there were hershey kisses blazing a little trail up the stairs to my bedroom. When I got to my bedroom, my desk chair was in the middle and a card that said "Marci" was propped against the backboard. I read the card and it was really sweet. Then in the card Tom asked me to go out by the pool. So he was in the backyard and the pool fountains were going...or waterfalls or whatever. And he said some really nice things to me (but I honestly don't remember what was said) then he kissed me and got down on one knee and said "will you marry me?" and OF COURSE I said YES! I am so so so so so so so excited. I cannot wait to marry Thomas. He's the greatest. We'll be married in the Sacramento, CA temple on July 19, 2008 at 10am. The reception will take place that night :] I'm very excited to begin planning and to be married to such an amazing man. I'm so lucky. :] Everyone loves my ring. It's gorgeous <3

June 28, 2008

"I'm at efy to be a counselor! I already miss my Thomas like crazyyy! I think EFY will be really fun but I seriously miss Thomas :[

Oh PS 3 weeks until WEDDING DAY! YAY!"

July 2, 2008

"I miss my Thomas a lot. :[ two weeks and two days until we can be sealed to each other for eternity. I love him so much. We are going to have an amazing life together. I know we'll have rough patches throughout married life but I also know we'll always work through them :]"

July 4, 2008

"I miss Thomas more everyday. Two weeks, one day until we're married! :] We can't wait! That will be the happiest day of my life. I can't wait to be sealed to Thomas for time and all eternity. We are going to have such a happy life together :]"

July 6, 2008

"I'm getting married in one week and six days! :] 13 days! I'm so excited. :] I am so in love with Thomas. I can't wait to be Mrs. Wallace. I love him so much! <3>

July 7, 2008

"Sooo I seriously miss my Thomas. :[ only one more week! 5 days actually! :] Hoorah! I can't wait to go home to him. I love being an EFY counselor...it's just really hard to be away from Thomas."

and finally...

June 20, 2008

"Thomas and I were married yesterday! Yay! The sealing was beautiful. We were sealed at 10am in the Sacramento California temple. Afterward, we took pictures in front of the temple for a couple hours. IT was so hot. Ugh. Then we went to the luncheon that Tom's mom put together. The food was great :] We got a small break after that...maybe half an hour. Thomas played x-box with Ryan and Chris and I played mancala with Kelli. Then we headed to our reception at the stake center on Wissemann. We took lots of picctures there before the guests arrived. Not as many people came as I expected but it was still pretty well attended. We left the reception about 15 minutes before it ended and people were blowing bubbles as we left. It was really cute. The groomsmen decorated our car for us :] Last night, Tom and I stayed at a hotel called Le Rivage. John Chandler owns it and let us stay there as a gift. He is so sweet! He also left us a note and some sparkling cider. The hotel was SO nice. It's the only five star hotel in Sacramento. I love being married...especially to Thomas. He's amazing. The whole wedding day was perfect. I love my life.

PS sorry this is so sloppy. we are driving to Magic Mountain."

And that's our story. :] (can you believe Thomas stuck with me through all that!? Thanks, love!)